When a girl gets dumped, the first thing she wants to say is, ”You’ll never find anyone better than me.” That’s not the case here. I know you can find someone better than me, but you will never find someone who will love you as much as I did.
For more than a year you gave me the impression that you were falling for me day after day. You could have corrected me if I was wrong. Instead, you made me believe what I thought was impossible. I thought you would never stop loving me, but I guess our little pinky promises meant nothing to you. I want you to know that you were my best friend and everything I needed in my life. You are the one who taught me how to love and how to appreciate those who loved me. It was a learning experience for the both of us. I lived under the assumption that we would grow together and our love would get deeper. Instead, your love for me grew weaker as my love for you grew stronger. Now that my wounds aren’t as fresh anymore, my friends tell me to move on and that I can do better than cry over you. But what if I don’t want to? What if I believe that you’ll come running back to me? But what if you already moved on?
These questions linger in my mind and the only thing I understand is that I still love you. I am still in love with you. I can’t stop the feeling.
I’d like to thank you for all of the laughter and adventures that I'll never forget. Thank you for being my first love in high school. Thank you for being the best prom date I could have had. Thank you for the infinite number of hugs and kisses that brought me so much comfort. Thank you for graduating with me. Thank you for making the transition to college easy. Thank you for making me believe in love. Lastly, thank you for being you.
Relationships aren’t perfect, but that doesn’t mean you give up and fall out of love. My parents kept saying “you’re too young to be in love” but I was lucky enough to find love so early in my life thanks to you. I act like I’m over you, but the truth is that I never will be. I play the songs you used to sing to me on repeat on my phone. The pictures we took together are in a hidden in a folder on my laptop. The gifts you gave me are still on the top shelf of my dresser. The love I thought you showed me, still hurts my wounded heart.
We had a plan for our lives together, and you decided to take a different route without helping me with the detour. In your eyes, I was just a girl. In my eyes, you were my world.
