Dear Sister,
I can’t believe tomorrow will mark one year that you left this earth. I still can’t believe all that time has passed without you. It’s so hard to fathom and some days still hard to cope, as I have told you before to me you were not just my best friend you were and will always remain my sister. The one who I could always vent to when life got rough or just to talk to you about our own lives and share laughs and memories.
I still recall in spite of all the pain your illness caused, you always managed to look forward with a smile and with your faith always a part of you. It was always that bravery that shined through within you.
I am sorry, my sister, for not being able to say goodbye. The call of your passing came so unexpectedly one moment you were here and the next you were gone. I have to say the numbness I felt when you left was unbearable for a long while. I have to say when I was not angry I was in tears. I just could not deal with losing you.
Then I spoke to your son and he made me see the light. The wisdom he shared with me was something I will always remember. His words were clear and still resonate with me, “ My mother is in God’s Kingdom he called her and she is now at rest, I am not saying you can’t miss her and that I don’t miss her but if we believe in God’s plan we have to see this through even within our pain.”
These are words I carry with me even when I want to break and I want to call you and see you. I still have moments where it still stings but I am getting better each day.
In my dreams, I hear your voice giving me words of encouragements and telling me you are always near.
I still look over the messages you left me on the messenger of how proud you were of me of all that I was accomplishing in my life with my family and my writing. But, I was so amazed and prouder of you my sister.
Throughout all of my life, the one person who remained constant and part of my life has always been you.
You, who would always give the shirt off her back to help others. The one person who was always honest when giving advice, I always appreciated it because it helped me be the person I am today. I will cherish each memory and even though it does get hard at times as I know tomorrow will be for me. I know when I look up into the sky I will see a light shining through that which is you.
I just wanted to tell you that I am going to be okay and when my time comes I know you are one of the first faces I will see when I enter into God’s Kingdom. For now, I will remember the laughs and the memories and keep them as an imprint in my heart.
Love you always,
Sylvia
