Dear Friend,
My hometown has been plagued by suicide for years. It has caused tragedy and called into question, what -- if anything -- we could have done to save the people we have lost to the dark thoughts that haunted their minds.
I've come to the realization that changing the made-up mind of a person is near impossible. I've also come to realize that your mind -- in particular -- isn't "made-up" until the moment your heart can no longer beat.
For all the moments you questioned if you will be missed I want you to read this as, "A Poem From The Person Who Has Lost Somebody From Suicide." You are not alone in this.
We can close our eyes in disbelief
But that does not allow us to close our hearts to the grief
We sit and wonder as the days go by
So many questions, starting with: why
You are the happiness behind so many smiles
Don't go, because we are willing to walk with you every mile
We’re happy to have you in our loving arms
We’ll keep you from committing self-harm
We are able to wipe away the tears you shed
We can kiss away the darkness in your head
We can laugh together once again
Once complete happiness wins
Everybody in life has their drawbacks
But we will remind you of all the greatness, you think you lack
The sound of your voice is one of a kind
Let us help you escape this state of mind
We close our eyes and are scared of your fate
We open our eyes to still see your beloved face
We want our memories with you to be endless
You are the victim to horrible thoughts, defenseless
You grin at life with empty joy
But there is still so much life left to enjoy
We've all felt as high as the tallest mountain peak
And as low as the deepest creek
But find the best field to sleep and lay
In the bed of a truck at the end of the day
The life you're living offers much more
There's always another open door
You think the world would be better off without you
But darling, you have no clue
Your dark world can be fought
You can find the happiness that you sought
You're not alone in this war
We are not here for you to ignore
If you question if you'll be missed
Please try to resist
Your thoughts are better spent
Not questioning what you meant
Before you ever try to leave
There are things you need to perceive
Things that are important, two
1. You 2. That's the truth
It's extremely difficult to confess to people the thoughts that go on inside a suicidal mind. We can't begin to understand the torment that endlessly continues in a mind thwarted with dark thoughts, however, you can understand that we will be happy you came to talk.
You are better than the people that allow you to think less of yourself. You are strong. You are able to overcome this. You are loved. You are the only version of yourself; don't think it isn't good enough to be present on this Earth.
Some battles are too large to be fought by just one soldier, never feel ashamed to ask for help. National Suicide Prevention Line: 1 (800) 273-8255.
Sincerely,
A Person Who Doesn't Want To Lose You
