We just met a couple of weeks ago, but I feel like I got to know you in just one night. I do not genuinely have feelings for you, but it hurts that we barely talk. I put a lot of muddled effort into building a friendship, and hopefully what would soon be a relationship, just to watch you ignore it days later. Maybe it was too soon for you, maybe I came off a bit strong, or maybe you just did not feel that same connection.
With all the stress of college and work, it was nice to get it off of my chest to someone who did not know me. I don't see you as much, and I figured, “Hey, it'll be a while until I see you again, so why not?” I never would have thought that our one night would just be that one night. Now I see you around a lot more, and I cannot help but feel irrelevant when you do not even acknowledge me.
We stayed up countless hours on a weekend, smoking cigarettes and talking about the moon and the sun and everything in between. We walked home and got fast food we regretted later that day. It was surreal to meet someone like you. Your name comes into my conversations whenever I talk to my friends, “Hey, how is ____?” I do not know how to answer, because we went from talking about everything to talking about nothing.
I often wonder what it would be like if our friendship, or relationship, continued and what it could become. I want to reach out and get back in touch with you but I know I shouldn't, because I am afraid of a read receipt with no reply. I do not know if it is because you do not remember me or if it is because you do not want to remember me.
My friends warned me about you, but I chose to give you the benefit of the doubt anyways. I have always thought that everyone is a decent human being with kindness and compassion for others, but as I go through my college journey and make a lot of one-time friends, I have learned that not everybody has a friendly soul.
Just know that I am thankful for everything we ever helped each other with, whether it be talking out issues going on in your life, or mine, or whether it be your unreliable words of encouragement to keep me going. I do not regret meeting you, as you have helped me thus far through my college journey. Some friends are only meant to be friends at certain points in life, maybe you are just one of those. Although, I had wished that we would be friends continuously. I will move on and someday be over all of this, but until then I still look back and think about everything we did together.I regret nothing and will forever remember you.
