First of all, I want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a chance. After my last relationship that ended in disaster, I never thought I would find anyone else, or that I deserved anyone else. I'd even convinced myself that I would be alone forever. So, thank you for finding me.
The next thing I want to say is that I'm so sorry. I am so sorry that I won't be able to give you every little piece of me because I did that once, and I never got my whole self back. I will always carry this pain around with me. Pain in my heart, pain in my head, pain in my eyes. It won't ever go away. There will always be pain, and none of that is your fault, and I'm so sorry for that. I was so hurt, so heartbroken after my last relationship I vowed that I would never put myself through that again. I don't know how I got myself back up again, but that strength led me to you and I'm not sorry for that.
Another thing I'd like to say is please bear with me. I can barely trust myself, let alone give all of my trust to another person. I will always hold up some kind of wall, and I'm going to need your help to break down those walls. I wish this didn't have to be like this, but I was in a bad place for such a long time that I can't make myself that vulnerable again. I know none of this is your fault, but I'm going to need your help through this whole thing. Help me pick up the pieces, be my person, be the reason my last relationship didn't last.
I am so capable of love, and I want to give all of that to you. But in order for that to happen we need to take our time, and work for it. This thing doesn't just come, you have to try (which seems to be something my ex never understood). Give me time to say those three little words, give me time to allow myself to open up. This won't be easy, but in the end it will be worth it. I will do everything I can to give 300% to us, and when I allow myself to love you, please don't let go. I guess that having all of my love is overwhelming, and it's probably more annoying than I'd like to admit. However, I will do everything I can for you, for us. You'll be my everything, and I'll do anything I can to make us happy.
Promise me you'll try to understand what I went through, and promise me you'll do your best to make things better. Promise me that you won't hurt me, and promise me you'll keep my heart safe. Promise me that you'll talk to me so that we can make this work. Please understand that I can't let myself go through any of that again, and I want to trust you. I'm going to be in this for the long run, and if you're ready then I am too.
