Dear Me,
You are you for a reason. And don't think for one second that that is not okay.
Everyone is different. We all have different views on different things, we all like different kinds of foods, we are all not going to have the same amount of drive or ambition, we are not all built the same. And that is okay.
I know you think that sometimes you are at places that you don't belong, or that you should be somewhere else. You always second guess your decisions because you don't know what is right or what is wrong. You can be lost sometimes. But just know, you are you.
You will find people you will click with, and you will not know how to feel about it. You will find people that you necessarily aren't fond of, but will continue to keep them around because they keep you company. You will find someone who you care for so much, but are not sure how they feel back. But I promise, your people are closer than you think. They are the ones who care for you, support you and love you more than you can even realize yourself. They are there for you because you are YOU.
And if people don't like your past, what you stand for, your personality, your goals... GET RID OF THEM. You need to learn that negativity is the worst thing for yourself. You need to only keep the people who love you for every single aspect of you. YOU DO NOT CHANGE FOR ANYONE. You hear me?
Everything happens for a reason, right? Every bump in the road, every mistake you made, every person you meet, every choice you make... they all happened for a reason. Whether you know it yet or not. All of these things help define who you are. You can't be the person you are right now without all the things that you have overcome. That is why you must always look forward. You must always look ahead. Because the best version you is still to come.
I know you struggle with things. You don't know how to handle situations, you don't always stand your ground. But you need to learn that you will only go downhill if you don't stand up for yourself. You deserve all the best things in life. You deserve the world, and whatever is holding you back from that, you need to move on from it because you need to be you. You should never be held down.
In the end of all these sporadic thoughts, you just need to be you. Every choice, mistake, the people you meet, goals you achieve... it defines you. Don't ever for a second think that it is not okay to be you.
Because you are someone no one else will ever be. And that is truly amazing.