Hey stranger,
First, I would like to say that you're amazing and I love you. Well, at least I think I love you because I have really been mistreating you lately. I watched you grow as a person, and I can honestly say I'm disappointed in you and proud of you. I'm disappointed in you because you let others control your mood and how you feel about yourself. How did you become this weak? You were never this broken before, so I'm confused on what went wrong. Well, I won't lie to you and tell you I don't know what went wrong because I do.
It all started when you tried to pretend like you didn't care about your biological mother and father giving you away. Or was it when you saw a picture on Facebook of your real sister and brothers having a great time with the caption "I keep my brother and sister around me damn near every day".Admit it that really hurt you on the inside but, you ignored the pain. You told yourself every day to move on from it because the past is the past for a reason. However, when those thoughts flooded your mind you seem to always drown. I don't know what to tell you to recover from this situation. I don't know how to help you when you have to sit there and watch them be a happy family without including you.However, I want you to forgive them and move on. Forgive them for your own sanity, peace, and happiness.
I have to admire your strength. When life knocked you down you struggled but you never gave up. You always kept your head up and got through every situation. This letter is for you to understand that it is ok for you to be upset and weak. A lot of time black women have to live up t this unofficial rule of always being strong. However, it is okay to cry and have those moments to yourself. Those moments are what make you a stronger person. Stop being hard on yourself and comparing yourself to others. That can really break you as a person. Take this time to heal mentally, physically, and spiritually. Life is all about making mistakes and growing from them.
Love,
Your Bestfriend