Dear you,

I'm sure you've heard of the term "high school sweethearts." Ever since freshman year, that was my dream. When we first met I didn't know what to do. I grew up in an all-girl elementary and middle school, and I had no idea how to converse with boys. I got you to talk to me by suggesting that you and a friend of mine would be a cute couple. Ironic isn't it? Since the only two people I wanted to get together were me and you. Sadly, that idea backfired and resulted in me losing that friend and you not talking to me. Thankfully, towards the end of freshman year we patched things up. I wish I could say the same about my old friend though.

Sophomore year was a little bit better for us. Well, there was never an "us" so to speak, but you get what I mean. I really enjoyed our friendship in sophomore year. We used to walk home from the train station together sometimes. My aunt lived on your block and I would pass by her house so that you and I could walk together. At times I would just turn and walk five blocks to my house. To prove how crazy I was about you, I once did that in the snow.

After a while I eventually told you how I felt. You being the kind guy you are, you shut me down nicely. You claimed that you wouldn't want to ruin our friendship by dating. I accepted it, until two weeks later a former best friend of mine came to me saying how you were all over her. It seemed as if yet again it was a friend of mine that got in the way. After sophomore year, I just acted as if I didn't like you anymore.

Junior year started and it seemed like you had no recollection of sophomore year. We were close, but not like we used to be. You and I ultimately drifted and there were rumors about you and another girl having a "thing." I believe in girl-code so I didn't intrude. When she asked me advice about you I was always forthright. I never gave her advice that would ruin what you two had. Ultimately, your "thing" didn't last and we became seniors.

We made amends and somehow went back to being close, but I still felt as if I had no chance with you. It wasn't until our senior trip that I started to feel bullish. Everyone was asked a question, and your question hit the jackpot. You were asked "what do you want in a girl you'd marry?" Most of the qualities you mentioned described me. I went home that night feeling ecstatic. I figured if I told you I never stopped having feelings for you then maybe we could give us a try. Unfortunately for me, right when I was going to tell you, there was another rumor. Like last time, I didn't want to break the girl-code so I kept my distance.

You and I still stayed close, we texted everyday and you drove me home occasionally. Although, things were different and I felt us drifting apart again. I remember you telling me "things will be different. We'll both be in college and we'll drift apart." You sounded upset about it, but I did my best to assure you that it wouldn't happen.

Graduation came along and for some reason you were mad for my accomplishments. Either that or the girl you were chasing after told you to never talk to me again. It was the day after graduation that you didn't text me the usual "good morning." And it was the days that followed, in which you stopped texting me altogether. It hurt at first, not only because I liked you but because even if we never had a relationship I still wanted to stay friends.

So to you, my high school crush. I want you to know that I'm not upset that you dropped me. Or that you were naïve and never understood how much I loved you. I get it, boys can be clueless. I've stopped fantasizing about there being an "us" because it doesn't do me any good. Although I do believe in destiny, and if you're mine then we'll meet again one day. The last time you saw me was the night of graduation. I've transformed since then, you'll have to see how the next time you run into me. If you read this feel free to tell me your thoughts (even if they're negative). Just know I'll always love you and I hope that whatever your future holds that it's a happy one. Good luck, and please don't go for a girl that doesn't fully appreciate you.

Love,

Me