I know you’re panicking. I know you feel stuck. I know you feel constrained, suffocated and you’re using every ounce of strength you have to try to break free. To move on. To follow your deepest desires and leave everything else behind. No second thoughts, no over-thinking.
I know you’re wondering how the hell you ended up here, in a place surrounded by people you don’t like participating in activities you aren’t interested in. I know how out of place you feel and this is me apologizing for that.
You don’t belong here. I don’t belong here. I have bigger dreams. Different desires. We’re resonating on different frequencies. You’re in one place, while my body and mind are in another. You want to break free, to buy a one-way ticket and not come back. To start new, start fresh. To finally be surrounded by the people and things you want, in the place that you love. The place you’ve never even been to, but believe is your home. The place where you can fit in. Where you can finally take a look around you and know that you belong. That this is where you thrive.
This place has never felt like home to me. These obligations have never felt like my own. This life is foreign, as are the people I interact with on a daily basis. I feel like I'm spinning in circles. Like I'm going nowhere. Like my brain is on a different frequency every second because it doesn't know it's place. It's constantly having to adjust to being surrounded by unfamiliar, unwanted atmospheres.
I have high expectations and no way to manifest them. I live vicariously through others and try to transport myself into their position. Try to make their lives my own. Hoping that it'll in turn change my life, and bring me the things I desire. They say the law of attraction is powerful. That you can acquire anything you want as long as you keep your mind set on it, and I've never been more hopeful of anything in my life.
So, to my heart that feels like it doesn't belong here, the only thing we can do for now is be patient. Be positive. Work our hardest to get even a fraction of a step closer towards our goals, because we'll make it there some day. Regardless of how it happens or who's standing next to us in the end, we will make it if we truly believe we can.
