We wish we could understand, understand how people just randomly show up in our dreams. Questions come about as to why are these people in our dreams? What is their purpose? Is there something we need to know about this person?
We don't have our answers, but we all have our why's.
About two years ago, I had said goodbye to a man I had fallen in love with. I worked my way through the pain and learned how to be his friend and tried multiple times to find someone else to mend my broken heart, but it never worked...or well, luck hadn't been in my favor.
I had met this man when I was 21 and now I'm 23. Though it has been a short time, and I don't really stay in contact with him, lately he has been more prominent in my life than ever before.
They say that when you dream of someone they're thinking of you or if you can't sleep, then someone is thinking of you; so with the long sleepless nights I had, did you stay up and look at the girl next to you knowing that she'd never love you like I did? Or all the times that you've shown up in my dreams, were those the amounts of time you'd try to apologize to me?
I remember how badly you wanted me to move on, though you still cared immensely for what we had. For all the times you've haunted me in my dreams, was it you fighting to save us? Or you fighting me? Fighting because you knew that no matter what had happened, I'd never let go of us.
Though I will always love you dearly, I ask of one thing: Leave.
Leave me alone in my dreams for I long to love someone new, someone who will show me what it means to love someone that'll spend the rest of my life with me. You were the stepping stone into helping me understand who I was as a person, and forever I will grateful for that. I have tried time after time for you to be gone and for my heart to be clean and now it is time.
I will wait for the next time I see you in my dreams, and in that moment I will part from you. It has been a long time, the haunting of you in my dreams only pulls me back into your arms but it is time that I create new dreams with someone else--someone who won't leave me.
As I leave, I will leave you with these words:
"Say you'll remember me
Standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your
Wildest dreams..."
-Taylor Swift, "Wildest Dreams"
