Dear Old Me,

You are almost to the age of twenty years old. Twenty years of smiles, laughter, tears, pain, and full of remarkable to even shattering memories. Twenty years of trying to fit in, trying to find your own place in this never slowing down world. From going through phases –yeah let’s not forget those phases even though some we want to bury down deep inside (Hollister jeans, DC sneaks –yeah you get it). Yet at almost twenty years old, you don’t feel like yourself, I don’t feel like me.

That’s because you aren’t yourself anymore, and it’s time to say goodbye to that girl you used to know, the old me. All of those old friendships that blessed you with good memories, but also all of those toxic memories that never leave. You have strayed from your path, or that path that you planned and chose at fourteen/fifteen. You didn’t end up happily ever after with your first kiss, and you didn’t end up staying super close to your childhood best friends even though you spent year after year swearing things wouldn’t change. You’ve seen many things that you never even imagined you would ever experience or hear. It is sad to look back and remember what you were, who we were with, and what we wanted to do and plan for our future. But are we where we pictured us to be? No. This is one of those many times where we look into that mirror, and question who we are, because everything has changed.

So hey to the girl I used to know, this is goodbye, and me turning to a new page. This isn’t goodbye to myself, but a chapter of who I was. At twenty years old I can say I don’t know exactly what I am doing with my life, but that is perfectly fine with me. At twenty years old I have a whole new chapter open for me, open for me to learn what new dreams, goals, and passions I’ll inherit in my now present and future self. Just because we’re saying goodbye to the old doesn’t mean it has to go away forever, everything I have felt and experienced you take as a learning experience. So this is it, at almost twenty years old I am ready to take on the new, and let go of the old. Just remember that you have not failed, or lost your way because things didn’t turn out the way you wanted it. Growing as an individual is complicated, and takes more than one path to walk.

Yours Truly,

Me