Dear Future Wife,
I want to apologize for my actions. I have been looking for you. The problem is, when I was searching for you, I only found paths that led me away. I only found heartbreak. I was looking to find you in the wrong relationships. I was searching for quick gratification; I was more worried more with emotions and things like kissing than I was with your heart. I’m sorry.
I pray for you every night. I pray that you love God with all your heart and that you are following the will He has for your life. I know you probably have had your heartaches, but I want you to know that it is okay. I forgive you for anything that you have done, just like I want you to forgive me for what I have done. Mostly, I pray that you have decided to let go and let God. I pray that you become an amazing woman and that you have decided to let God lead you to me, instead of searching on your own. The thing is, if we search ourselves, we may never find each other. We must wait for God’s timing.
I want you to know that for the longest time, I was afraid I wasn’t going to find you. I was afraid that when I found you, you would be the woman for someone else. I was afraid that I was not going to be good enough for you. I was not trusting in God. That is a horrible road to travel. It leaves nothing but heartache for me, anyone I had a relationship with, and eventually you.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for your sweet sixteen, or your prom. I’m sorry that I wasn’t there to cheer you up when you had your first heartbreak. I’m sorry I have not been there for you. However, God has always been there for you. He is building you up to be the woman He wants you to be. He was also saving you from me. I haven’t been mature enough for you yet. I have not been the person you need. God has kept us apart because he knows that it has not been the right time.
I am ready to wait for you. I don’t know if we know each other or if we have to wait another five. Time will only tell. I am going to wait for God’s timing and stop trying to force it with other people. You are the only woman God has for me, so I am going to wait. I will wait if it is a month or if it is twenty years. I have decided to let God lead me to you when it is time.
Patiently waiting,
Your Future Husband
