Dear Friend,

I am so sorry. I can't say that enough. And I know that nothing I can say will make up for what happened between us. But I want you to know that I still think about you often, and I wish we were still in each others' lives.

I wouldn't be the person I am today without you. My taste in music and movies would be radically different. I wouldn't dress the same. I wouldn't know how to dye my own hair. There would be books I would never read, place I would never see, and things I would never experience if I hadn't met you.

The memories of our friendship will forever be in my mind and heart. I will always remember the times we laughed until we were lying on the floor crying. I will never forget the times we consoled each other. Even the days we spent being lazy and watching way too many videos on YouTube will always hold a special place in my heart. I still keep a box of things you made for me under my bed. Don't think I have ever forgotten you and the times we spent together.

We had such a special friendship for over three years. And then life happened. And a boy happened. And I stopped trying. I became complacent with seeing you once a week and only talking to you when you reached out first. I became distracted, and I forgot to put in the necessary effort to make our friendship work.

Not only was I a bad friend to you, but I was a bad example of Christ to you. Christ doesn't give up on people. Even when we stray, He constantly pursues us, and I should have continued to pursue my friendship with you. Christ loves without limits, and I put a limit on my love for you. Christ wants us to be a disciple and share His Good News, and I didn't do that nearly enough for you. And I am sorry.

Over the past few years, the Lord has changed my life drastically. I am a completely different person than I was when we became friends. I would like to think that I would be a much better friend to you now than I was, but I know I'm still a sinner and can't guarantee that.

What I can guarantee is that I will continue to think of you often. I promise to keep telling stories about you and to keep rocking out to the music we used to listen to. I promise to be a better friend to those I meet than I was to you.

I pray that one day you will forgive me. And if we ever cross paths, I hope we could rekindle the wonderful friendship we had.

You are wonderful, and I hope you are doing well.

Love,

Your Friend