Dear Old Friend,

It feels like years since the last time we really spoke, and honestly, it might be. I'm not really sure anymore. I see you're having fun away at college, I hope you genuinely like it there. I see you have a new group of friends, I hope they're treating you well. I hope you have a best friend that's there for you through the good and the bad. I hope they keep and respect your most abundant secrets, as I still have to this day. I hope they appreciate your ability to make anyone laugh without really trying. I also hope they appreciate the memories you make together.

Sometimes I still find myself remembering things we did together or joked about, or even discovered together. So much has changed in both of our lives since we were friends, and since I was a little girl I had imagined you would be my best friend forever. It's hard spending days upon days with someone for over a decade just for it all to come crashing down. Sometimes I pass by places we frequented or were something we thought was monumental happened or saw someone we used to know and you're still the first person I want to tell. I just bottle those things up now, just because no one would understand them the way you would have.

I still reminisce on the countless hours of hanging out at your house, walking through the park, wandering up and down the streets of our neighborhood for hours on end. I reminisce on the girl scouts meetings, playing with dolls, the selfies, the elementary school lunch periods, the middle school drama and all of the inside jokes we for some reason found absolutely hysterical.

I still seem to hope that one day things will suddenly go back to normal and we'll pick up from where we left off; without any animosity. I'm well aware it probably will not happen, but in life, you always need to have some sort of hope. Sometimes I see your posts and still believe we're one in the same.

Thank you for pushing me to try new things, meet new people and most importantly lead me to discovering myself entirely. Thank you for the advice, being my shoulder to cry on and being the person I confided in. I cannot stress enough how much I miss you and still wish you the absolute best in life.

Sincerely,

Your Ex-Best Friend