Dear New Girl,

You probably think I'm a psychotic bitch but I'm not, I'm just a girl who gave everything she had to a boy who shattered her world. I know I shouldn't dislike you because I don't know you but I'm not gonna lie because I don't like you. I don't like that you are with the man who I am still in love with, the man who promised me forever and then gave it up. I don't mean to be rude to you but you are adding to the pain I feel because you get to be with the man that was supposed to be mine forever. I wish I could say I'm happy for him but I can't make up some lie because that's not how I feel. I want him to be happy but I thought he would find happiness in himself instead of finding it in another woman because that's what he needed, he needed to figure himself out.

I'm jealous that you get to be with him in every way and that you get to make new memories with him. I bet he will tell you that you are the best thing that's ever happened to him but that's a lie because that's what he told me ( I literally wrote him a song called that). I bet he will text you smiley faces constantly and want to cuddle and binge watch shows together. I bet that those shows are the same ones that he watched with me that I have to turn off every time they are on. I bet you that you guys will have a song together that he will turn on randomly and make you feel like you are on top of the world. I bet he will lie to you, just like he lied to me so many times. He will deny he ever lied and then you find out so much later. Maybe he will take you on trips to far away places and maybe you'll meet his amazing family and they will accept you as their own.

But he will be the best guy ever and that's why it hurts so much to see you with him. Yes, he lied and he cheated but he was my whole world and now you are holding my world in your hands. I forgave him for everything even when he kissed another girl while still with me, I forgave him because he was my world. It may sound like I hate him but I could never hate him. I hate that he found another girl. I hate that he will fall in love again and I hate most of all that he's not with me.

I bet that you are a wonderful girl and I hate that I just can't bring myself to like you but understand where I am coming from in the fact that you are dating the guy who was the love of my life and who was supposed to be "my forever." I hope that if you guys break up that you will never feel like I do because I don't wish this pain on my worst enemy. I don't ever want you to feel like life is worthless now that he's not in it because I still feel that way and it's been months. Maybe you will break his heart and he will realize how much it hurts. But until then, Take care of that man because he was my whole world and now you have it in your hands.

Sincerely,

The Ex