Dear friends I owe this overdue apology to,

I get it now.

I completely understand how you felt back in the days when I was pulling at your hair for you to hang out with me, but you chose your significant other instead.

I understand now why you felt left out of the group when we stopped inviting you to hang out. We always assumed the answer would be, "no, sorry I'm hanging out with (boyfriend's/girlfriend's name here)" so we stopped bothering you after hearing that excuse over and over again.

I get it.

Being the single bird that I was for 21 years, I never understood why you couldn't balance having friends and a relationship. Although life is all about balance, I've come to realize that you weren't even trying to balance this equation. You were choosing to spend your time with someone who makes you feel good. You dedicated your time to a person who put you first, who made you feel loved, who made you feel special.

Currently in my first serious relationship myself, I now completely get it. It's not that I don't want to hang out with my friends, it's just that I have found my best friend. I found someone who is the whole package. He makes me feel good, loved, special, and he puts me first before anyone. We can laugh, joke, and hang out just as I would with friends, but he makes me feel like I mean something. He makes me feel relevant all day, every day, while friends tend to view you as relevant when they're bored or need something.

I'm in your shoes now, and I'm sorry for criticizing the way you lived because you would ignore or avoid me. I now know why you did this, and I'm sorry for all of the distance I created between us because I couldn't put out the fire in my cold, bitter heart.

Sincerely,

The hyprocrite