A letter to the future me

December 15, 2012

Dear Matthew,

First off I would like to thank you for all of that information and I hope I can use it to my advantage to create a better future. I have to admit that it's hard to see this vision that you've spelled out for me seeing as you never said what this "life changing" condition is and I don't understand what reason there would be that I didn't attend St. John's University next fall. I will admit I'm pretty stubborn but it's only because I know how hard I've worked, and I enjoy saying "I did that." Right now I just feel like I have this tunnel vision and I can't see anything stopping me or even slowing me down. I'm saving money even though you claim I'm going to go to another school for free. What world do you live in where a guy like me can just go to school without paying a dime?

I can't imagine losing the friends I have now but if you say so then I guess I have to get used to being alone, LOL. Relationships now aren't that great but that's more because I'm busy and honestly, I'm not too crazy about one right now anyways. There is this one girl that I'm into and if we go to prom, and then maybe the same school we could be together forever. I'm a tad confused about this whole ordeal by the way. Are you coming back from the future and giving me a chance to remake it? If that's the case you should have done something useful like tell me what's going to be the next big thing to invest in or maybe some winning lottery numbers. Will we get a female president next? Is the world really gonna end in a few days? Are those flying cars coming?

But on a serious note I'm happy that you told me I'll be overlooked. That sounds surprising considering how well I perform in the classroom and I'm sure I'll carry that over to college. It's funny that you say I could work harder, because I know I can but I just don't have the motivation to. My grades are good and for me right now I'm just waiting on that inevitable acceptance letter to college and then maybe I'll shift gears when the stakes get higher. How is my GPA in school, by the way? I'm a little shocked that you say my condition that I get is not my fault and I'm wondering if maybe now I should start preparing. You said that no one I know has encountered this before so I guess I'm up for the challenge.

I take it those brothers that you mentioned are not the same ones that I have now but honestly I wonder what could happen thats so tragic that would bring us apart. Nevertheless it's pretty cool to know I'll have some help from them. This life that you see for me sounds OK but I'll see what I can do about bettering it. Maybe I'll stop flirting with Lauren in English class and cheating on those tests or rapping to the music playing outside of math class by the Hispanic people that live next door. Now that you mention it I could try harder in that government class too but that teacher is crazy, and we both know I'm a lunch/gym all star so no problems there. Well thats all for now I don't want to take up too much of your time. Give me a call when you get a chance and maybe I can take me out for lunch, it's the least I could do.

Hasta luego,

The man you claim can be more.

P.S. This is me looking at my future but as you can see the picture's blank because now that you told me all of this I'm not sure what to think. I'll just work hard, pray for the best and I'll guess as the saying goes "only time will tell."