My mom always told me "once a cheater always a cheater" as she said that I would laugh and told her that I believe in second chances, and I believe that someone can change. Boy I was WRONG.
The thing is my mom is always right. Anytime I go to her about something she always tells me what is going to happen and she has never been wrong. The thing is I wanted to believe that the first time you cheated was a "mistake" and that it "wouldn't happen again". My heart breaks for the amount of times that it did happen without my knowledge. There have been 2 instances that I know for sure of.
The first was when you fucked a married woman while I was at work in the house that I paid for on the bed that I bought. Why didn't I leave then? To tell you the truth I fell for the apology and believed you when you said it was a mistake. After that I started to question you a little bit more as to who you were texting and hanging out with because after being cheated on the trust kinda disappears. I guess my constant asking and me always wanting to know what was going on turned out to bite me in the ass.
You used me asking against me and left for the night. You told me you were going to your cousins. You ended up blocking my number so texts and calls couldn't go through. That was red flag number one. Red flag number two was your cousin told me you weren't with him. Its funny cause your own cousin ratted you out. You said you would be home by 11 am, hmm interesting time because hotel checkouts generally start around that time. The other crazy thing is that it was with the girl you told me not to worry about. Gah my mistake, even though I knew all along that it was weird you were talking to her at strange hours of the night, it was weird that you just recently started to talk to her, and it was weird that she was sending you photos. You tried to play it off that she was "just a friend" but I know better than that.
When you get home at 11, your bags are packed by the front door. I request that you put the key on the table, I called Verizon and took my name off the phone plan, your bill is due the 16th btw. I won't be sad and I won't cry because I found out the truth that you never really loved me at all. See someone who truly loves someone wouldn't make the same mistake twice. Someone who truly loves someone wouldn't block them from being able to reach them, and someone who truly loves someone wouldn't be going behind their back doing shady shit. You lied, you got caught, and now you can pick up the pieces.
To my mom, I am sorry that I didn't listen. I know better than that now. Next time something like this happens if there ever is a next time there will not be a second chance given. Here is to yet another lost love.
