Hi there,
I know we barely speak anymore. The end of our friendship wasn't the greatest and although we tried to end on good terms, I feel that there are still some things left unsaid. I know I've done my wrongdoings and I fully accept them and have apologized for them. However, I don't believe that they're the reason our friendship fell apart. There were so many instances where anger built up causing emotions to be unclear, instances where wrongdoings were done but nothing was said, and instances where words hurt but they were brushed off for the sake of not getting in an argument.
We could go in circles discussing where our friendship went wrong and I don't think either of us would agree. Sometimes I felt like our friendship was too good to be true because we would hardly fight or disagree about things. Were we scared of our friendship ending? Did we know it would end?
Ultimately when it did, I wasn't surprised. I was waiting for the bomb to go off. I tiptoed around a lot of situations that should have been addressed as soon as they became an issue. But it's okay because I learned from our friendship and I know what to do better in my new friendships now. It does suck not getting to text you after important events happen in my life. It sucks not getting to hear the catastrophic events that happened at work. What hurts the most is not getting to make new memories together. Looking back at pictures of our friendship is somewhat painful and joyous because you're no longer my go to. At times I'd like to text you to see how your life has been going but I don't know if anything would come of it. Even though we apologized and made amends, our friendship cannot be recovered. It's not because I wouldn't want to, it's just that I think we should leave our friendship the way we remembered it best, whole and sweet. I often blamed myself for our friendship falling apart and never being fixed but then again, friendship is a two-way street. And even though we only speak once in a blue moon, you will always be the person who made my first year of college worthwhile.
Sincerely,
The girl who found peace
