The quote that I would pick as the most significant besides my life motto would be, “The bravest thing I ever did was continue my life when I wanted it to end,” by actress Juliette Lewis. This signifies my life at this moment because between May 2014 and June 2015, I suffered from depression, anxiety, anorexia and self-harm. Even today, I suffer from depression and anxiety and life can get really hard. This quote helps me remember the times when I sat on my bed in the dark and cried to sleep or when I tried to kill myself in a time of hardship and loneliness. Everyday, I’m thankful to still be alive, even on the days when I don’t want to keep going. I’ve read this quote almost every night since I became clean of self-harm in June.
The motto I selected for my life has no one author but an abundance of users. To me, it’s something that I constantly have to remind myself: “Remind yourself that it’s ok not to be perfect.” I struggle every day to be what everyone expects of me and it can be overwhelming. This quote keeps in my mind that not everything I do has to live up to every expectation; it’s ok to be my own person and mess up like every other human being. I do what I love and sometimes my anxiety kicks in and makes me rethink what I’m doing for the fear that no one will like me for it, but sometimes, I don’t care and I have fun.
These quotes tie into each other very well. It’s ok not to be perfect and sometimes the pressure to be perfect makes you want to disappear and never come back. It takes a lot to pick yourself back up after something like trying to end your life. I’ve been almost a year clean from self-harm but the depression and anxiety is still there. These quotes and the songs I listen to help me push through.
IT IS OK TO NOT BE PERFECT!