It’s okay to not be okay.

If you are reading this, it’s because you struggle with what I struggle with all the time.

We live each week trying to survive the amount of homework, the social life, trying to sleep, and most importantly have fun. We send snapchats, post on Facebook, upload a cute photo on Instagram, or even tweet on Twitter, just to show people that we are having a great time.

However, even during the weeks that we want to cry and break down, we still do all these things to make it seem like we are okay but I’m here to say it is okay not to be okay. Some weeks are better than others, some days are great while other days are awful. Some days we are high on life and others we do not think we will make it to dinner. No matter what you are going through it is okay not to be okay.

The truth of the matter is that no one is completely okay. There is a story behind every smile, every gesture, every talk that you have with someone. People brush it off and act like they aren’t okay because the ones around them have made it seem like they do not care that much, or even that your true feelings don’t matter. People fake their happiness on a daily basis to prove to everyone that they okay; but why? Why must we pretend to be okay around others who are not okay? Why hide something when you should be able to talk to those around?

Talking to people is not a bad thing, but it talking to someone means trusting them, and sometimes having trust in a person is the hardest thing to have. Trust is hard to gain, but easy to break. For me, if someone breaks my trust, it takes me a while to even trust other people because I think that everyone else could be like that one person. I get the overwhelming feeling that because I trusted someone and they betrayed it that everyone knows I’m not okay, and I do not like it.

Society has taught us that if we aren’t okay 100% of the time then something is wrong with us. That being human isn’t good enough. Humans have this nature of wanted to have a reason as to why they are sad, or mad, or angry, or anything, but sometimes no matter how hard we search we cannot find the reasoning and therefore sit there in silence pretending like everything is okay.

It’s okay to show emotion, it is okay to show weakness. It is okay to feel like a mess. It’s okay not to have your life figured out, it’s okay to have a night where all you want to do is cry and eat some chocolate. Life is a bumpy road and there will be good times and there will be bad times, but through it all, something that you should remember is that it is okay not to be okay.