In life, time and time again it's the person who you trust the most that hurts you in the end. Often it seems that the best friend that’s supposed to be there for you “forever” ends up being the one who leaves.
Nothing is fucking predictable; you can’t predict anyone’s intentions in your life, you can only live through them. These past couple of weeks I have been feeling so damn alone, I seem to forget that I am surrounded by people.
I used to think that we were forever. I mean, we have been through worse, and we were still side by side after it all. Now nothing has even happened, we just stopped telling each other anything at all. Before I could even make sense of it, there was so much distance between us that there was nothing to reach for. You are so far away, and there is no point in reaching over anymore. We are not the same people we used to be.
I used to think that when somebody said that they loved you they would love you forever. I used to think loving someone was something that would never go away. The words “I love you” are just a lie, a phrase thrown around loosely with hardly an ounce of emotion attached. When you run across that one-in-a-million and they look you in your eyes and tell you “I love you” you want to believe it with every fiber of your body, but when do you know it’s real?
The answer is, you don’t… and sometimes someone will love you one day and then completely ignore you the next for no reason at all.
Nothing about anything makes sense anymore. People are here one day, then gone the next. Sometimes you don’t even get a reason, you just get to stay up night after night wondering where it all went wrong.
Nothing makes sense, and I don’t know how to accept the fact that, sometimes, there aren't any explanations for why things happen. Sometimes you get no reason as to why someone just stops loving you and stops being there for you. You just have to live through it.
