Let's face it: people can be so mean. Most people believe that once they get out of high school that the drama will stop, the "bullies" will go away and that we will find who we are and be confident in ourselves without someone raining on our parade. The hard, sad truth is that none of that goes away. There will always be someone out there that is jealous of you and your good day that will do everything in their power to ruin it, and most of the time we let them.
I am no exception to this; I struggle with trying to be the "cool" girl. To make sure I have just the right amount of each characteristic to make up the "perfect" person. Some common thoughts are: "Don't be too loud, that's annoying" or "I have to put on a full face of makeup and do my hair for class so people won't judge me."
I have struggled with not being good enough, pretty enough, and not having the right things to say at the right time. There have been many nights when I was certain that I was more of a burden to my friends and family than a blessing. I know a lot of other people feel the same way.
Most of us think we are being ridiculous because we will be so happy and feel so loved on most days and then we have a bad day thrown into the mix. But, "Whenever you feel unloved, unimportant or insecure, remember to whom you belong." Ephesians 2:19-22
I knew that when I started college it would be a new start, but I didn't know how much of a blessing the new start would be for me. Throughout my first month of college, I have realized that I am enough and that I don't have to try and fit any mold that society sets for me. I embrace everything that I am and everything I am not, and the ones that truly love me won't care either way.
Now, I go to class many days without makeup on, and I walk in confident. I talk loud and sing even louder. I act goofy and dance like no one is watching. I'll embarrass myself so if anyone else tries to it won't work. I don't try to prove myself to anyone and neither should you because it's not about being more. It's about knowing you are already enough being who He has called you to be.
"Confidence isn't walking into a room thinking you're better than anyone, it's walking in not having to compare yourself to anyone at all."
So if you have read this far, I want you to know that you are loved for who you are and how you are. The Creator of the universe created you to be you and no one else, and he loves you more than anyone else ever could. So, I challenge you to fully embrace yourself and your goofy tendencies or your weird laugh. You are enough. No one is better than you because no one else is just like you, so there is no comparison. So go out and be the best version of yourself.
