As I sit in my room - wrapped in blankets and wearing two pairs of socks because it has finally hit freezing - I am concerned because I don’t think I am passionate. People are always talking about how they are passionate about a sport or music or a certain career path.

Then there is me. I like things but I am not truly passionate about anything (yet).

Many people rely on their inner passion, but I just can’t find mine. I don’t know how to carve into my soul and find what is itching to come through. I am not sure if it is because I don’t have time to think about what I really love, or if it is because I simply don’t have a passion.

Some people think if you don’t have a passion, you don’t have goals or you aren’t motivated. I do have goals and I am motivated, I am just not passionate.

I think they are all quite different things.

How does one find their life passion/s? I feel like I have been searching for years. When I was little I always thought I would be doing something in the medical field and be passionate about that, but as I grew older that wasn’t the case. I figured out two years into college that was definitely not the path I was going to take. Now here I am, a communications major, and still unsure what I am passionate about.

I like music but it is not my passion.

I like food but so does every other human being.

I want to be unique but I feel like everything is taken.

I love kids but I don’t have the patience to teach them every day.

I hear so many stories about people finding their passions when you least expect it. When they are in the open wilderness, with just their heart and minds, but that isn’t reality. Not everyone has time to go to the open wilderness for weeks to find their passion.

Maybe people aren’t actually passionate about anything? Maybe we aren’t truly in love with anything. Maybe we just say we are passionate about things and then believe it because we feel we need to.

We all feel being passionate about something is a must.

At least I do. That is the scary part. I am not, but I want to be.