I am afraid of October. I am afraid of October because I am afraid of all things scary. (Honestly, I'm scared of everything, the majority of which just happen to actually be scary/spooky.) I have never grown out of the stage that I was in years back: an innocent girl wearing her Super Mom costume, attempting to ignore all scary things ever.
I have an amazing ability to suspend disbelief. This is wonderful in a literary aspect because I am able to let a novel fully consume me. As I read, I am a part of the novel, not a skeptical reader. This is not wonderful in a literary aspect when you're a sixth grader trying to read "Harry Potter". I didn't go watch this spectacular series in the theatre. I waited until the movie was available on DVD and would watch it with my family, holding tightly to a blanket just in case I felt the need to cover my face. I walked out of many movies as a kid feigning a need to go to the bathroom, when in reality I would just stand in the lobby, trying to control my breathing, reassuring myself that the animals in "Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa" were not going to die. I felt as if I could be in the series, but I also had a wonderful capability of assuming the worst. Those animals were going to die. The family in "Meet The Robinsons" was going to die. All characters in every movie were going to die. And that's how I spent my childhood years: crying because Nemo's mom was killed in such a scary way.
I have never watched a scary movie. I refuse to. I have had friends who would try to coax me into going along, but then they would see my reaction to something as silly as a "Scooby Doo" episode and realize that I was not the person to drag to a scary movie. The differences between "horror" and "thriller" do not phase me. I avoid both. They are one in the same.
And that is why I am so afraid of October. The month for Halloween, the month in which we celebrate spooky things all 31 days when Halloween is just the last day of the month. I'm tired of watching friends' Snapchat stories and being surprised by a preview for a scary movie. I didn't ask for ads, Snapchat, and I especially did not ask for scary movie ads. Even worse than Snapchat is MTV, what with their scary movie commercials every break when I am watching "Teen Mom". I didn't want to see that preview once, and I want to see it even less multiple times. I want to ignore the clowns. I don't want to be afraid that they're intermingled with all of the normally costumed clowns. I don't want to watch "Scooby-Doo" just to think about how weird Scrappy Doo looks. I'd like to eat candy corn and peanuts. I'd like to come up with couple costumes for my best friend and me. I'd like to pass out candy to a few adorable children. But I do not want to be a part of the spookiness. Keep that away from me.
