" Summer lovin', had me a blast. Summer lovin', happened so fast."
Let me tell you, it is not what it seemed to be. Summer love happens so fast, and it is not a blast. If you're planning to go away to school, never get feelings for someone over the summer. Though it may be fun, and it may be all you want for the summer it has to end eventually. You're probably thinking, how? That's what I thought, how can you develop these feelings for someone over the course of two maybe three months? It happens, and it probably not the best decision I've made.
So, I went to a get together with my friends and seen someone I could have been interested in. We talked for all of two minutes, and that was it. So I thought, fast forward a couple of hours, and we were hanging out. Day after day just enjoying each other company, not thinking much of it. Then, hanging out started to feel like more and then feelings got involved. That is where I made the mistake; it's not like I didn't have friends to hang out with but we were all living different lives now. And somehow this guy who I thought would just be another guy turned out to be much more.
I know I should've stopped it for the simple fact that I live in Aurora, Illinois, and I go to school at Saint Leo University in Saint Leo, Florida which is approximately 2,000 miles away from each other. I have no one to blame, but myself. I could blame him, but I have control over my feelings and the feelings I develop for whomever.
So, moral of the story is when you're going to school don't think that you can be in love because it is hard. Not saying people can't do it, but it is a lot of work, and long distance is even harder. I know people say "distance means so little when someone means so much" but when you can't just hug the person you've been able to hug every day for the last two months it is hard. Then, you're stuck holding onto memories, and people start changing, and feelings do too. I'm not saying it can't happen, and that people can't make a relationship work while not seeing each other, but I was not made for that.
Now, I sit here thinking of how I'm going to say goodbye. How to let go of someone I never want to have to say goodbye to. But, it's not a goodbye, it's a see you later. Maybe when I see you again, we won't feel the same way, but I've made memories with you that I can't let go of, and I wouldn't change any of it. I'm not thinking of the situation as negative, but the best thing to do with your summer is hanging out with your friends and family. Don't develop feelings for anyone because you will end up like me. Not knowing what to do because I don't want to leave and I don't want summer to end because that means the end of us, but if it's meant to be it'll happen, right?
