Not at all

to no extent
that's what this means
but you couldn't hear me
pass my muffled screams

music loud
roaring in my ears
no, wait
that was just the sound of
my heart beating
blinded my sight of my tears.

It's not a tease
not a test
it's a response
to something I've said

no

I didn't want
I didn't need it
I know what path I wanted to be
on and you didn't heed me.

The strength you
used to hold me down
didn't last forever
since you've left town

no

to you
to the things you wanted
like the things you wanted me to feel
and the pressures of your disappointments when I couldn't deal.

When I couldn't handle the smoking and the late nights, drinks of beer
and only being together in the shadows where things, as we both knew, weren't real.
Like this relationship and the pain I was consistently in.
The only harm now
is the memories left haunted

So fuck you
and let me be quite frank
I'm saying yes to me
and moving ahead.