Within these last few weeks, I have been struggling to find myself. Struggling to find who I am meant to be in this world. I have felt like I am torn between chasing my dreams and focusing on myself and not doing anything else. I feel lost but found all at the same time.
Throughout all of this, I have begun to focus on my relationship with God. Prayers and scriptures have become a part of my daily routine and they are really helping me find peace. Even when I do not have time to sit and read before bed, I find myself scrolling through Pinterest when I’m at lunch or dinner finding quotes from the Bible that relate to my mood of the day. Quotes that are teaching me something new and bringing me closer to God.
I can honestly say that I never thought this long and this hard about my spirituality and my faith. Yes, I thought I knew who I was and who I was meant to be, but life is never that simple. There are always going to be moments when you question everything you do, every thought you have, but in the end, God will be there, holding your hand and guiding you down your life path.
I have a lot of family to thank for this. If it was not for them, I do not think that I would be where I am. For the longest time, I told my mom that I would do this whole religion thing on my own time, and now I have, and I now wish that I had listened to her and built up my relationship with him sooner.
No, I still do not know who I am meant to be, yes I am going to continue to try and find myself. But, in the end, I know that God will only lead me to what is really meant to be. I will walk with him and journey on to whatever he brings.
