There is no pain quite like missing your best friend. A best friend is someone who knows you inside and out, better than anyone, and carry all your dirty little secrets with them as if they are their own. A best friend knows how tragically messy your room is, they know how aggressive you are behind the wheel of your car when you yell at other drivers, and they know all your hopes and dreams, however silly they may be. This best friend, this is your person.
When you don't get to see your person, to sum it up, it sucks. You see their Instagram and Facebook posts and like and share them because it makes you feel close to them for a second. You hear things about them, how they are doing, what they have been up to and their future plans. However, you feel like you aren't a part of their lives anymore, and it tears you up. All you want to be doing is driving down those roads you would drive down together, listening to your favorite songs, and talking about things that mean something to you. With the person who means the most to you. You sit and watch Netflix and wonder what they are doing, and if they are as bored as you.
So what happens when your best friend makes new friends? You sulk. You sit in utter despair and watch corny movies where the best friends go skipping down the street and bump into strangers, who happen to be gorgeous British twins, and fall in love and live happily ever after ... No that's not a real movie, but wouldn't that be awesome? Anyways, when you do finally talk to your best friend it's about their new life, the one without you in it, how great everything is. You listen to YOUR best friend talk about how her and her new friends went to the movies and "accidentally" parked next to the hot guy in the parking lot, stuff that you used to do together. It's normal to be jealous about this sort of thing, especially if your life isn't that great without the other one in it, but you try and contain it, try and be happy for them.
However, this is the hardest part. Even though you should be happy for them, you aren't. You just wish that things would go back to normal. You wish that their new friends didn't exist, that it was you going to the movies with them. You wish you could move back and be close to your best friend. But then you realize you are both moving on, that you both have new, different lives. You start to understand that even though you used to know everything about each other that your best friend is now a stranger. You realize that the person you used to love and spend every day with is now fading away. Soon you will hear their name and they will be just memories.
They saying growing up is a part of life and some friends will come and go. But does that make it any easier? Maybe not. You will find yourself realizing that the person that used to be your best friend is a stranger but the person that was once a stranger is now your best friend... It's funny how that works. All in all, not seeing your best friend does suck and yes it might drive a wedge between the two of you, you might outgrow each other. You will wonder if every deep dark secret you ever told will actually be kept safe with them still, you will hear a song that makes you think of them, and you will shed a tear now and then because it hits you that such a big part of your life is now gone... but remember this, the people that are meant to be in your life will stay.
