As aware as I am of my age and lack of experience in this life, nothing frustrates me quite like feeling as though my voice goes unheard. Especially when it comes to my own decisions. Sure, some people are older or wiser or both; regardless of that fact, I feel that up to this point, I've done just fine.
No, sadly, I'm not perfect. And believe me when I say that I have a long list of words and actions which I wish I could erase from my memory. But if it had not been for that book of mistakes which is a heavy object that I will forever have to hold, I would not be the individual who I am today. By now, I've had many instances during which I've reached the end of a road and had to choose a path. At this age being forced to make a decision quickly or in some cases, being forced down a certain path, are common issues.
I have not forgotten the people who have helped me along the way. And yes, it can at times be difficult to express the love I possess for my family and friends while I am dealing with difficulties that consume me. But that doesn't mean I don't love you. I do. That being said, please, trust me.
Trust that where I go from here, I am doing it for me and for no one else. Trust that I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. Trust that beautiful opportunities are in my future, and in yours too. Trust that each major decision that I make has a good, strong reason behind it and that I've considered all of the ups and downs that go along with it. Trust that I love you, but I'm not you. Trust that my actions and my decisions are reflective of myheart and of my goals. Trust that I'm a grown up now, and I know what's best for me. Trust my aspiration for success and for happiness. Trust me.
