For most of my life it has been a series of trying new things, finding who I am, and simply just wanting to fit in. For example, during high school I was involved with many different things that later I found not to be as appealing. But as I am starting to grow older in college I'm starting to find myself relying on Him more and seeking his ways and His timings.
Sometimes in our faith we often have those moments of regret, hurt, and shame of our past life experiences that when we go back to those memories, it effects our innermost thoughts. But the truth is when we let all of that go and fully surrender ourselves to Christ he will show us the way in which we can walk. He will guide through the storm we were once in and direct us to an even more bigger picture than expected.
And it may not always be as easy as it seems, but it'll definitely be worth it in the end. It is important as Christians that were not always trying to figure out things far beyond our reach, but instead giving God all the glory and praise that he so richly deserves. So when all else fails, trust God. He knows exactly where he wants you even if the answer may seem so far away. Here are a few Bible verses I find helpful when I need to remember these things.
Romans 8:28 "And all things work together for the good for those who love the Lord."
Psalms 91:4 "He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge."
Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."