I’m not a super religious person nor am I super spiritual in other ways. I’m not in tune with the earth in ways that others think they are. I always seem to be floating in between. I believe in God but I do not believe he created the planet or people. I believe in science. I feel as though I am in a similar space when it comes to the Zodiac.

I don’t know much about the Zodiac or the mythology behind it. All I know comes from those weird astrology sites that Facebook used to send me to all of the time when I was in middle and high school. Back then I used to believe that what those sites told me about my compatibility with my crushes were accurate. But I didn’t quite believe my horoscope very often. So how could I do both of those things? How could I believe that it may have something to do with my crush asking me out or not and not believe that my horoscope was accurate? This is what I mean by being in the middle, constantly floating, never landing on the ground.

Recently, I got sucked back into one of those sites when I was scrolling through Facebook. I became curious about what my zodiac sign actually meant/symbolized.

I’m a Cancer. The crab. Not the most appealing symbol but whatever. I am a water sign. That is about all I knew about my zodiac sign. According to the website I used and various others that I double checked with, my zodiac sign means that I value home and comfort and tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. All true. It is also said that Cancers tend to retreat into our shells like a crab, and are hard to pry out of them once we do. Also true for me. Although we like to retreat into ourselves, we are also “tenacious and strong-willed.” Also, true. Therefore, the basic characteristics that kept coming up about Cancers do apply to me.

It also says that we are controlled by the moon and that our moods are often determined by the phases of the moon. Also, our connection with the moon tends to be displayed in our intense maternal instincts. I don’t have any evidence to agree or disagree with the facts that my moods are or are not controlled by the moon (I don’t keep any records). However, I have been called the mother of my friend group since we were small kids. Also, apparently I am fertile and sympathetic. I can only attest to the latter as I have never been pregnant before, nor have I tried (I’m only 19, leave me alone)!

Apparently, being Cancers and water signs, our emotions “make a splash.” I do agree that I have intense emotional reactions to everything. Also, in correlation with the water sign we are supposed to be quick to help others and avoid confrontation. I do both.

Though I have aligned with much of the information that I found about my sign, I still never align with my horoscope. Maybe I’m not intuitive enough when reading them or maybe I’m overthinking. Am I going to follow all of the suggestions made to me based on my sign and horoscope, no. But I do understand where the likeness comes from. I have always felt a connection with the moon and the water. They do keep me calm, so although the horoscopes don't make sense to me, all of that does.