June 4th, 2018 will forever be a day I will remember. I wish I could forget it. I lost my sister that day.

I have never experienced a loss like this and I hope whoever is reading this never has to. A sibling bond is special. From the day my sister was born when I was 6 years old, my life was changed. "Sibling rivalry" was no doubt our thing from the time she could talk, but no-one else was ever there at the end of the day like she was. I remember watching My Sister's Keeper when I was younger and thinking to myself, "that could never happen to me". God had another plan.

I wish I could say these past eight months have been anything other than complete rock bottom, but they haven't. It's been hard. It's hard to go from seeing someone you love every single day, to watching them die, and now waiting until the day you're able to see them again. Truth is, it sucks. But, if I've learned anything these past few months it's that it's okay to not be okay.

My sister accomplished a lot in her 14 years on this Earth. She did a lot more than many people that are 2x her age do. She changed lives and is continuing to do so from Heaven. She had a spark that everyone could see. Whether it was helping those in need, cheering people up, advocating for our sisters with Down Syndrome and orphans in Ukraine, or creating a bible club at her middle school (yeah, she did that), she did it all. She made people better. She's still making people better.

I wish the world could just stop some days. I wish people didn't have to die. I wish childhood cancer didn't ruin so many lives and I wish my sister was still here.

Alivea passed away four hours after she was diagnosed with Anaplastic Large Cell Lymphoma. Four hours and she was gone. The reality is, you don't know when your time is. Neither do I and neither did my sister. If you have a sister or sibling, go tell them you love them. It could be the last time.

"The point was I had a sister. She was fantastic. One day I'm sure I'll see her again. But until then, our relationship continues." -My Sister's Keeper

I know my angel is right by my side every day. Love you sister.