I can honestly say that I’ve never been ashamed of my own body. Sometimes, I look at myself with disgust or with success. But I was never embarrassed with my personal shape. I joke about it from time to time. I dress myself up and then dress myself down. But ultimately, I love the way I look.
It's simple anatomy. I have breasts, a ribcage, a beautifully, round bottom, and pairs of legs/arms/eyes. I have a face that may reveal my true emotions to certain situations. I have fingers that can flip you off at any given moment. I look good in some outfits that are different sizes and I’m fine with that. My body is great.
I understand, that at one point, I was a slender being. I had a thin waist, slick arms, and thighs that didn’t predict the weather. But in life, we grow. We normally never stay the same.
But what bothers me is that people don’t really get that. We grow, we live, we learn, and our bodies extend from that. People change and see others change and they don’t want to accept that change. Instead, they reject what is happening and tell you that you are no long like yourself. They say “you’re different and I don’t like it.”
To me, body image is your perception of yourself. It is the only perception that actually matters. I think that is something that people lose sight of. I wish to improve how I look because I am just tired. I am tired of being tired all the time.
I am a workaholic, I walk around all day, ruin my planner with an infinite amount of plans and events. I am busy all the time and all the time I am busy. I love work, I love having the sense of accomplishment with the assignments or plans that I have.
But I never take time out for myself. I cram 37 hours in one day. I sleep when I have five minutes while I commute places. I smile and chat when I am coming up and down the stairs even though I am dying. The only time that I take the time out is when I have a plate of food in front of me.
I understand that I lack self-control for food. But who doesn’t? The society that we live in, we listen and communicate with food. That is why I enjoy late night dinners. It brings two of my favorite things together, amazing food and awkward conversation.
But there is a time in your life when you have to literally look at yourself. You have to take Polaroid picture of yourself. A still shot. A shot that exposes you. Though you see that person in the mirror, you have to think about if you like the person who is looking back at you. Do you want to change anything?
