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My Personalized Hell

Everyone Struggles With Something

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My Personalized Hell
Brandon Cannady

There are a great number of massive pitfalls in this world. They are known as many differing things. For Christians it is known as “sins of the flesh”. For others it is often known as “character flaws”. They are so alluring because they are desires… I used to never understand.

Then I found mine, I found my desire of the flesh. It brought me to this world, helped me understand why people are as they are, and made me question everything. I couldn’t understand why the Lord would show me such happiness that is supposedly just of this flesh.

I suppose it is just to show me there is no happiness in this world that is able to eclipse the joy to be found in the Lord. I know this, and I always have.

I want nothing more than to glorify the Lord, more than anything else.

Yet, when I found my desire of this world I understood. I finally understood why people would be alcoholics, drug addicts, or addicted to anything…

It is so easy to find something of this world that can provide you with more joy than you could imagine YOU could possess.

To be honest, I have found myself praying every single day for God to tell me what I needed to do…

To take from my heart any desires of the flesh, because I couldn’t handle them without Him.

I pray every day, that I could obtain a fraction of that happiness back, without taking it away from myself… due to the idea that I don’t deserve to be happy, or the guilt I feel for even desiring something of this world…

I share this because people have often shared similar thoughts with me in regards to their earthly desires. They feel as if they are abnormal for these feelings, as if they are guilty of something simply for having these desires.

I UNDERSTAND; I feel all of these things and I pray every single day the Lord can tell me how to Glorify Him. I pray He will purify every portion of me.

Everyone has something they struggle with, maybe you just have not found your personalized pit yet…

I call it, “my personalized hell”...

I will never forget how conflicted I felt and feel because I was offered so many things I wanted in life, in a way that was contradictory to what I might believe.

I believe we all have a “personalized hell”.

I thought that if I had the right heart, I might not get one, but I was wrong.

It would be so easy to slip into my pit because it seems like everything I want.

My personalized hell;

It feels as if it may never go away, I feel that pain every single day, I miss what I thought I loved…

I am trying to learn to love in a healthier way.

I am living just outside my personalized hell… I am trudging, attempting to get further and further away…

What is your personalized hell?

What do you struggle with?

I pray understanding what you struggle with can help you understand that everyone has this hell and pit they spend much of their life either living in their pit or trying to trudge away from it...
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