Dear Old Friend,

It has been awhile, hasn’t it? Frankly, I have been meaning to text you to try to repair our friendship, but every time I go to text or call you I get this feeling in my gut telling me not to. But I'm not sure if it's the fact that I feel guilty for how our friendship ended or the fact that I just miss being your friend. It has been really eating me up inside because, with all honesty, I feel like complete shit.

I understand that I am mostly to blame for our friendship ending, but with all honesty, it's your fault too. You made it clear that me not texting you during summer or the beginning of the semester was the main reason our relationship ended. But you didn’t contact me during summer either, so I guess we are both equally as guilty for us no longer being friends. Don’t get me wrong, I take full responsibility for not telling you that I was transferring schools but not hearing from you all summer made me feel like you didn’t care anymore, so I didn’t bother to tell you. But when you did contact me just to tell me that you were right and I was wrong...it really hurt me, but at the same time it made me realize that you did care.

At the end of the day, I want to thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being there when I needed to vent about my roommate. Thank you for all the nights you spent showing me movies that I would have never watched otherwise, for making me laugh at some obscured theory you had about the universe, or even for those trips when we would go get subpar, fake Mexican food because we were so tired of what the cafeteria was serving.

I hope you know that I am sorry I didn’t contact you sooner, and I am sorry that I made you feel like I didn’t care. It does make me happy to see that you're doing well when you update your Facebook status with posts and photos of you and your friends. I just hope you really do know that I never stopped being your friend until you made it clear that we weren’t, and I am always going to be here for you no matter what you think.

Sincerely,

The Old Friend That Wishes We Were Still Friends