It is not a news flash to any college student that this portion of our life is ever so chaotic but also ever so wonderful.

We have stuck our feet into so many different opportunities, relationships, and commitments so help jump-start our future. While we're doing these things, we're so excited and feeling so motivated and ambitious. Once you get into the rhythm of balancing all of these different factors, however, you start to feel burned out and suffocated.

That's where I am.

I can't find that balance or motivation anymore and I am drowning. I don't find the time for myself and what makes me happy anymore. My main focus is doing well in school, making my friends and family happy, and trying to prepare for my future. I'm not living for today. This semester has been the absolute worst and so hard but I barely remember it. It has been a blur and somehow disappeared. Here we are with four weeks of school left. What am I doing with my life?

I know I have to pay my dues and complete the hard work in order to get a good job and have a great future. But why can't it come faster?

Why can't graduation that is only a year away be here? I want to have my life back. I don't even know who I am anymore because college has completely taken over my life and dictates how I live my life. I hate it. Everyone seems to love college but I'm over it. I'm ready to be done and move on. I can't breath anymore.

I know I sound dramatic but this past year and a half has been such a struggle and such a blur.

I've endured so many academic, emotional, physical, and mental struggles. Their effects are definitely present and showing themselves. I wish I had a reset button in order to get rid of all that negative energy. I know it'll be over soon, but in the meantime, I'm struggling. I am so ready to start the next chapter of my life. I need that breath of fresh air and to have the sense that I'm in control of my life.

I want to feel like I am not drowning in my ever so hectic life.