To my brother,
As far back I can remember, we have never gotten along. It seemed as if we fought daily, which is probably accurate.
As I have matured, I have accumulated many regrets about our relationship. I used to, and still do, see other siblings around the same age who get along so well and they even consider each other best friends, which I envy. For a while now I have questioned why our relationship was so rocky. Why weren't we as close as other siblings? Why wasn't I a better sister?
Daddy tells these same stories all the time about how we were so close as toddlers and in grade school.
This one story he repeats the most about was how we were partners in crime. Supposedly one night we snuck out of our rooms, went to the kitchen, and decided that we wanted cereal. I helped you pull the dining room chair over to the counter to grab the sugar and cereal. Next, we opened the fridge and grabbed the milk. We then opened the cabinet and poured all of the contents into a stock pot. To eat the cereal we grabbed ladles from the counter. Yes, we got in trouble but I wish I could go back and relive this moment.
I remember so many happy times and question why things changed.
We may both be coming into our adulthood but I want to continue to create memories with you as we grow. Whether it's going fishing together or going to the gun range, you have honestly helped me become the person I am today.
I question why I wasn't a better sister because I have said many hurtful things that I wish I could have taken back.
I'm not perfect and I shouldn't have acted like it. I know you went through a lot of adversity with school and I added to the stress and the feeling of being a failure. I always knew you were going to graduate high school. I always knew you were going to be successful even if you didn't go to college. I may not have acted as if I supported you, but I was one of your biggest supporters.
Obviously, all siblings have their moments, but we had ours too often. It doesn't help that we have similar personalities. I want to say I'm sorry for all the hurt I have caused with my words.
I want to thank you for being my brother. Whether we are arguing or actually getting along for once, you are the only brother I have and you are irreplaceable. I hope we better our relationship in the future.
With love,
Tasha
