Dear You,
Someday I hope you find this letter and read it, realizing all the words I’m saying are about you. I hope you realize how much you meant to me and how much pain keeping my feelings inside hurt me. I hope by the time you read this letter I have moved on and found someone who can give me the same love and affection that I felt and gave to you.
Ever since the first day I met you, I was falling so fast and hard for anyone to catch me, for anyone to save me and warn me about all the heart ache and pain you would bring me. On the first day we met, looking into your deep dark chocolate brown eyes and introducing myself to you made me realize that my life would never be the same. Watching those soft pink petite lips of yours turn upward in a smile made me smile too, it didn’t matter the reason I just loved seeing you so happy. Your deep laugh and the way you threw your head back in amusement at something made me laugh too. My friends warned me about you they said you weren’t the right guy to fall for yet my heart couldn’t be convinced. I would pray that you would be there every time I went into work, making an extra attempt to look my best in my uniform just in case you were there. I don’t know exactly what it was about you that made me so weak at the knees but I prayed that you felt the same, that you would give me any shred of hope that I had a chance with you. Some days you gave me that hope, weather it was through a smile or a short stare at me and that kept me going. Leaving a day of seeing you made me hope that the next day would bring another. I knew you had someone at the time but my heart didn’t seem to care, I wanted you anyways. When I saw you get in line to order something I would make my friend take your order for me knowing all I would and have done is drop or spill something, so I tried to save myself the embarrassment. I talked to you once in a while and you talked to me, when you said my name my heart would jump out of my chest and for a second I had hope that you would tell me that you liked me and felt the same way that I do about you, but you never did.
It’s true what they say, when you give your whole heart to someone you only wind up being hurt in the long run. For you I made it so obvious I liked you, not in an overbearing way, but enough to give you the opportunity to say you felt the same. You never did though, and as days turned into weeks and months turned into years I realized you don’t deserve me. I deserve myself and I deserve people that treat me the way I treat them. I always treated you so much better than anyone else I saw throughout my day there but you never seemed to care or notice so I stopped trying. I gave up on you and I hope you feel that, I hope you feel what I felt every time I felt rejected by you. I hope it hurts, not because I truly want to hurt you but because I never want you to make anyone feel the way you made me feel again. So with this letter I say goodbye. Goodbye to my feelings for you, goodbye to my attempts to make you like me because I can only do so much. I can only take so much pain before I break, and when I first met you I honestly would have given you anything you wanted and that was stupid of me.
So goodbye, you.
Love,
The one you let get away..
