My brain is broken
It spews out stupid sentences
Nothing but idiotic thoughts
Somehow transformed into a string of words
Shooting out of my unsuspecting mouth
Before I can stop them
People react to my blunders differently
Some laugh at my stupidity
Others respond with snobbish looks
Some don’t know quite what to do
So then comes the thick, awkward silence.
But one thing is inevitable
I’ll always feel embarrassed
Ashamed
Regretful
Angry
Frustrated
At myself for being so incredibly dumb
At my mouth for its inability to stay shut
Why can’t I be the brilliant witty girl?
The one who knows exactly what to say?
The one with the comebacks
So cleverly cruel they sting like a smack
Leaving my enemies speechless?
Why can’t I be the perfect friend?
The friend who, with a few kind words
Can cheer up the saddest of souls?
The friend who, with a single phrase
Can lift the lowliest heart?
I always hope, when asked to read aloud,
My voice would be clear and smooth as silk
But I stumble and stutter through the sentences
Mispronounce words, skip a line
Or read in the wrong spot entirely
In every argument I get frustrated
'Cause my mind is completely incapable
Of sending the right words
To describe what I’m feeling
So it sends a shower of tears instead
I want to spin my thoughts
Into words of wisdom and beauty
Like Rumpelstiltskin
Spinning straw into gold
But I can’t even form complete sentences
Let alone intelligent conversation
I want to command the English language
To translate my thoughts and ideas
Into powerful statements and proclamations
That inspire, move, and change lives
But too often my mind must work furiously
To express what goes on inside my head
So please kindly grab your magic tools
And fix this dysfunctional brain of mine
Perhaps there is a short somewhere
Or a tiny glitch in the system
A filter or border patrol would do the trick
You gave me this mind
You know how it works
Teach me how to mend it
I can’t do this on my own, for,
My Brain is Broken
