Wherever I end up going in life, I want to make sure that I make a difference. Right now I’m in college, and I’m still enjoying the best years of my life. Earlier this week I was having one of those late night conversations with yourself at three in the morning episodes and I started to think a lot about what exactly I’m doing with my life. For the most part, I have everything going for me. My grades are good, my friends are amazing, and I couldn’t be more in love with the city that I'm living in at the moment. In less than a year in a half, I’ll be graduating from college… but then what?

You see, I don’t really have that part figured out completely yet but that’s okay. After all, I’m only 19 and I literally have the world at my fingertips. I could go get my masters, go to law school, or even go on my own "Eat, Pray, Love" journey. The one thing I don’t see myself doing anytime soon after graduation is getting married or having kids, and I think that’s completely okay.

On social media I feel like all I see are friends from my childhood getting engaged, married, and having kids. I’m extremely happy for them, because who doesn’t love a good wedding or cute babies? However at the same time, I’m relieved that I don’t have to worry about love or babies right now. To be honest, I don’t even want to worry about all of that anytime soon. We live in a world now where women are becoming more respected and influential, and I plan on living my life to the fullest by being extremely successful and independent on my own.

Whatever I end up doing in life, I hope that ultimately in the end I picked the right path for me. Life hasn’t always been easy, even though everyone in my life thinks the opposite. I’ve had to deal with a lot of heartbreak that even my friends and family don’t know about. In other words, I guess you could say that I “play it safe” in literally every relationship or life event. I tend to stay in my comfort zone and I’ve slowly started to try and break out a little more.

I think my biggest fear (and possibly my biggest weakness) is that I’m afraid of someone breaking my heart again. Falling in love scares me, commitment makes me doubtful, and getting attached to someone frightens me. I hope by the end of college I end up trusting people more and that I finally allow myself to fall in love again. Until that actually happens, I’m just going to focus on my education, future career, and my dreams. A ring on my finger doesn’t mean I’m happy, and a baby in my arms doesn’t mean I’ve served my purpose in life as a woman. There's more to me than just being "another girl," and I plan on letting the world know that.