I am absolutely nothing without my mom.

I'm sure many people have someone in their lives they couldn't live without. I'm also very aware that there a re numerous articles and posts about how much people need their mom. This may be another repetitive "thank you mom" article, but i've learned A LOT lately about how empty I would be without my mom.

I should of told you this a while ago,

But I will always need you. And for some reason that terrifies me. Maybe it's because you've instilled this desire in me to be completely autonomous. So much so that any slight chance I cannot stand on my own two feet lead me to mistake that for weakness. Or maybe I'm just afraid to let you down.

I should of told you how much I aspire to be you. And I don't mean that you're just my role model,but I can only hope that I can have even the tiniest piece of your soul. I want to illuminate every room I walk into. I want to impact the people I come in contact with. I want to love and understand different types of people by embracing them, rather then judging them from afar.

I should of told you "thank you" instead of shaking off your knowledge. I hate that I don't know everything about being an adult, it's my flaw. I promise my dismissiveness is not out of a lack of respect for all that you do, but a struggle with accepting a helping hand.

I want to tell you how much meaning you give my life. How much bs you get thrown at your way, partially from me, and how easily you can wipe it off and throw it right back. I love that you know my every move, even before I become aware of my next step. You've always been my shield and I will always love you.