I still see you.

I can still hear your laugh.

I wake up and forget you're not here.

I think of things I want to tell you,

but instead of picking up the other end of the line I'm forced to bleed ink onto a page that gives me no response.

You left me with unanswered questions,

sleepless nights,

and the mind numbing monotony of re-remembering, every single day.

It hits so hard, so fast.

When the sun is shining,

while I'm laughing,

in the middle of the night,

it all comes back.

It's like a scream that won't come out.

Something is missing and nothing can fill the void.

I want to be angry.

I am angry.

You took years away from me and it hurts.