I’m standing right here, but why is it that you still don’t see me? So many times I have looked at you and jolted back because I thought you might of actually been looking my way. Countless times where I have had to force myself not to give into the temptation to look at you, even if you were doing the smallest or most simple things people do every day. I crave the chance to look at you because to me it is so damn interesting. Because watching you stand there in front of me makes my heart race and my palms as sweaty as the morning dew on grass. Time and time again I’ve longed to make myself visible to you. What could I do to get you to notice me? Well, it took me to be someone who wasn’t me, to get you to notice I’m here....
I vividly remember being at a party, one of our friends threw it and we both happened to be there. I was focused on someone else at the time and all of a sudden you were right there in front of me. Of course you were doing something, but I noticed you just by your voice and the way you walked. My friend turned to me and grabbed me…
“Tonight is your night. Do not have any expectations or you’re going to be disappointed by the end of the night.”
…and she was right. I took a drink and headed towards the downstairs. Ready to dance and have a good time. That’s the first time I got close to you that night. I was slightly confused but it took me to see you to remember that there had been a possibility that you’d be there. I said your name to myself and you tried to take a quick look, but continued on your way. Not noticing me.
I went on dancing. Hanging around my girls and requesting song after song. I finally forget to even pay attention and all my pent up anxiety was gone.
“Do you wanna get a drink?”, my friend said.
“Yeah, I’ll come with you.”, I said.
We walked upstairs, went into the kitchen, and there you were. On the right side of me talking, I think you slightly looked my way but I continued on my mission. Soon enough you waltzed over and I spoke you name questionably and you turned to me. You said my name and better yet you looked right at me. You knew who I was…
We began talking about everything, from work to life and life to school. I can’t even remember what we talked about that whole night. I was too focused on the fact that someone as charming as you was paying this much attention to me. And my name…you knew my name.
I stared at you for a moment after we both laughed. I could feel the apples of my cheeks turn bright red and your eyes intense with a beautiful brown innocence. I was lost. Lost in the fact that one human could be so flawless, yet know it… and it scared me.
But the moment I looked into your eyes, I saw another person. I saw you and even better…you were seeing me too.
