Great. Once again, you have tipped me over the edge. How can someone repeatedly keep doing this to me? Bigger question: why do I keep letting this happening? I thought I was better than that.

Ready, that's what I am. I am ready to explode and tell you like it is. It is the only option I think I might have left to get to you. It's not what I want to do as I do not know what the repercussions will be, but I just have to.

Even my friends and family think it is about time I let this go because what I am holding onto is not healthy for me or for you. I don't think you want to see the ugly side of me. I try to my hardest to keep it under wraps away from everyone.

Not only do you nag, brag and complain, you constantly tell me all the negatives about your life. I don't think that is how you should look at life, but it is yours not mine. And I won't be living mine like that any time soon.

Any other person would have given you the middle finger and walked out the door by now, but I try my hardest to figure things out. I do think I see the best in people.

Dear Lord, I hope and pray you give me strength over what I am about to do. For I am typically not like this and don't ever want to be.

Explosion.