Dear Anxiety,
You come into my life at the most inconvenient times and moments. You create hardships for me to keep going each day. You cloud my thoughts and make it unbearable to focus on anything else. You make me search deep inside me for self-worth. You make me push away people I love, and ruin relationships worth keeping.
You come to me when I am driving and alone. I grip the steering wheel till my knuckles turn white. I feel wells of tears forming in my eyes, and just like that, a wave washes over me. I feel nothing and everything all at once.
You make me question my self-worth. You make me question each individual relationship I have. You make me challenge people, and challenge myself. You make me think that everybody is going to leave, because everybody does.
You make me lash out at people who have only given me their best. You make me struggle to love and be loved.
It is more than just something "in my head". It consumes me each day. It elevates any frustrating moment I have. It makes mountains out of molehills. It makes me feel loss and despair intensely, so fiercely that all I can do is shake and cry.
Stop consuming me. Stop ruining my relationships, and more importantly, my life.
Please, please stop. Because you are no longer welcome in my home, my mind.
