Trigger Warning: This article discusses suicide.
Ask anyone, "Glee" is my absolute favorite show, like ever, and there's a couple of episodes that always stick out in my mind. One episode being season three, episode 14, called On My Way.
In the episode, David Karofsky, a gay teenager, attempts suicide in the wake of bullying as a result of being outed. I remember watching that episode and just breaking down in tears in my dorm room.
Today, in the bathroom, I broke down in tears over Mark Sallings' suicide.
For those who don't know, from 2009 to 2015, Salling played Noah Puckerman, better known as Puck, on the hit TV show "Glee." More recently, and more noticeably, Salling has been found guilty of the possession of child pornography.
In March, he was due for sentencing, facing four to seven years in prison. And today, January 30th, 2018, Salling was found hanging from a tree in the woods behind his house, after his family reported him as a missing person.
Let me just clarify: Salling's crime is disgusting, despicable, and unforgivable. But that doesn't take away from the reality of suicide and mental illness. And I say mental illness because this isn't the first time Salling had attempted suicide.
Back in August, he had cut his wrists in a suicide attempt and was rushed to the hospital after his roommate had found him. This wasn't new to him, and something was clearly wrong.
Everyone sins, we all do things wrong. Some sins are worse than others, yes. But saying that he "deserved it" or that you can't feel sad for him because of his actions is ignorant. Salling was a person, first and foremost, and one struggling with a mental illness that the mainstream public overlooked and laughed at.
When discussing his suicide with a close friend, and fellow fan of "Glee," they said, "I want to feel bad for him, but I can't because of his... crimes." No. You can feel bad. You should feel bad. This man was so mentally tormented that he felt the need to take his own life.
This tweet, from Glee producer Tim Davis, sums my feelings up perfectly.
While many may look at Mark Salling's life differently due to the confession of his crimes, and rightfully so, that doesn't mean we should just turn a blind eye to his suicide. His struggle is just as relevant in the fight for mental health recognition as Chester Bennington's, Robin Williams', and Chris Cornell's and we need to act like it.