It's so easy to forget who we are when we're constantly running around writing essay after essay and meeting with this group for that project and trying to complete all the assignments in between. College is one of those places where you can find yourself one day and completely lose yourself the next. In some ways, there's beauty in this, that you can be someone new each and every day but in the moment it can be frustrating to feel like you're regressing from the person you were yesterday.
Along with losing myself and forgetting who I am quite often, I've noticed I forget that I am so young a lot. I'm only 18 years old. I have lifetimes ahead of me and sometimes I notice that I feel like this is the summation of my life, obviously untrue. I think we get so caught up in trying to control every part of our lives that we forget that this is still our youth and it's okay to not take things so seriously and its equally as okay to do things you want to do, just because you want to. It's so very important at this stage of life to make time for things that make us happy, make time for personal growth and becoming the person you want to be, and trying new things.
A lot of people become numb to the emotions and experiences life places in front of them every single day, I've personally caught myself doing this in the past, which is one of the worst things someone can do. You're missing out on your own life, day in and day out, simply because you're not experiencing it you're just coasting through it. This is such a terrible way to live each and every day, especially in a stage of life where new things and people are coming your way every single day.
It is so important to actually live, not just exist.
Too often we find ourselves overwhelmed and taken over by the stressors of the world, our mind forcing us to miss out on everything around us. But, I encourage you to see your life for what it really is. Find beauty in your every day and the little things that surround you. Maybe that beauty is found in the birds that sing every morning outside your dorm window or maybe the cute text your best friend sent you this afternoon; wherever you find your beauty I encourage you to find it. Life becomes so beautiful when we look at all the things we enjoy in life, look at your life like its beautiful.
And if you can't find any beauty, which would be almost impossible, it's never too late to completely rearrange your life. Switch something up. Try something new. Live your absolute best life, because at the end of the day the one who has to be absolutely in love with it is you.
You don't find the happy life, you make it.