Do you ever just feel like how you look is not how you really want to look? Like these weird insecurity issues begin to form and you just don't know what to do about it? Sometimes I could look in the mirror and be so unsatisfied that I come up with a crazy plan to change everything about myself. Maybe switch up my hairstyle, or the things I eat, or the way I dress. Sometimes I feel like my personality is just not enough at some point.

Maybe I'm the only one going through that, I don't know some days I have enough confidence to last a lifetime other days I don't even want to leave my dorm room or even be looked at. I realized after some time of thinking like this that there is nothing I can do but love myself, I can't bother with how other people view me because then I would never find the time to love myself.

Don't get me wrong a good group of friends help you feel better, but sometimes I feel like its just not enough to change the way I feel. Sometimes it feels like they tell you things just because we are friends and that's what friends are supposed to do.

I mean with time these feelings change, just some days are worse than others. I don't know before I got to college things like this never used to cross my mind, but I guess college is really the place where you figure yourself out and you figure out what about yourself you love the most. As I am typing this I realize that the only thing I need to worry about is making myself happy and making sure I'm content with whatever I'm doing.

I COME FIRST and if someone ever feels the same way as me, just know you come first too.