I was stressed, exhausted, and completely numb from things that were happening around me. I had no direction in my life and began doubting what I was capable of. The only thing I could do was to sink into the little carpet on my friend's bedroom floor and ended up learning valuable lessons.
I didn't comprehend or receive all of the messages enclosed in her words right away. It took me months to truly digest the meaning of her words and to begin applying them to my life.
The first thing out of her mouth was love. Unconditional love.
Our lives are surrounded by love and goodness, but it's up to us to choose to see it. If we have a negative mindset then we will only see the bad components in everything. Love is everywhere; change your mindset so you can see it.
The next thing she kindly told me was that I had a purpose, but I was also the only person preventing myself from fulfilling it. Most times we are our own worst critics and feed ourselves lines of doubt. Every person has a purpose, we just have to get our minds out of the way and let our hearts take control.
The lesson that took me the longest to fully understand is forgiveness. Not forgiving other people, but learning to forgive me. We often think of forgiveness as accepting the situation, but it's much more. We have to give up hope that the past will change and allow our hearts to heal so the past doesn't hold us prisoner.
I am still applying these lessons to my everyday life, and I'm still struggling with it. However, I now love myself and others unconditionally and consciously. I allow myself to heal from the past and pursue my future.
Who knew a seemingly hollow soul could find love, purpose, and forgiveness lying on a bedroom floor.